*exhales deeply and runs a hand through her hair* Open? Really? Well... maybe it's time I said my piece.
I honestly feel that the current course HW is on will end badly.
I feel like HW has stagnated without any green light for the current leadership to take the reins, and is dragging the dead weight of an anchor as Jay struggles to keep up with what is going on. I am filled with a certain amount of dread every time I log in, because I see vast amounts of inactivity, very little new content, and still no set plan for moving forward. I know I also that I am partly to blame.

As Rin mentioned, the POTM competition died as my life got busier, and I didn't put in any plans for keeping it running in my absence. I apologize for that, and would like to resurrect it once things settle down.
Knowing what I do of the struggles the Council has been having in regards to the leadership team, it has somewhat numbed my enjoyment of HW. I know that HW has got some awesome things it could push forward. Podcasts, publishing, art, and more; I honestly feel all the big plans and ideas for competitions and whatnot have been put on terminal hold until HW's leadership is cemented for the next period of time. But that isn't happening, and it saddens me.
Though Jay cannot run HW from where he is now, I firmly believe we
don't need a new leader, singular. The reason Jay put the Council together was because, in his own words, "HW is too big for one person to run". He was right. And now, any one person that might be elected to take his place as admin would
not have the time to run the enormity that is HW. I know the Council has dwindled a lot, however if I were to postulate my ideal situation? Have the Council elect and promote new qualified and respected members, and from there - as a whole - run HW themselves. Freely - without restraint.
With no ill-will, no disrespect, and no discourtesy to Jay whatsoever, I believe God has called him to a different area of ministry. Jay is a visionary. He's always got his eye on bigger and better things to begin (And everyone who knows Jay, knows this

). The first steps of the journey are his favourite. If God indeed wanted him to still be completely immersed in the world of HW, would he have ended up where he is now - unable to reach it and run it successfully? I don't believe so. For now at least, I believe HW's best course of action is to move ahead without Jay, and pursue - not
Jay's vision for it - but
God's. God has great things in store for Jay to achieve, and He has great things in store for HW to achieve. I believe though, that at this crossroads, they are not compatible.
For me personally, knowing that the behind the scenes of HW is still unresolved makes me not want to participate on the board. I feel like this nagging, empty waiting cloud is hanging over me, that things are still unsettled, and for anyone who knows me well, they know I hate uncertainty. I rarely act when I feel uncertain, therefore this could explain a lot of my absence from HW.

A lame excuse, however it is a true one.
I think once the Council has regrouped and becomes the primary team of leaders, HW can get under steam again. Without having to check with a distant admin, they will able to confer and discuss with each other on big plans and bring them to fruition. This is not to say Jay would be left out of it. I reckon all the new things the Council brings to the table of HW, and allows the members to contribute will excite Jay as he hears about it in our letters and emails. Sometimes when you get caught in one train of thinking, you can't see any other way. Allowing the Council to run HW as they see fit under God may uncover some things Jay never would have thought of, and would pave the way for even greater things God will achieve in this project.
Call me weak and ineffectual for my pathetic contribution of late, but I think I would find a renewed vigour and passion to participate on HW again once new leadership arrangements have been locked in. I would love to then resurrect the POTM in a way that it will be easy to run, and easy to compete in. I'd love to see the CS story take off, and more poetry/short story books off the press. I'd like to see more writing competitions.

I'd like to see more people in the chatroom (myself included

).
I've sat on my hands all this time and been so useless whilst hearing of the struggles going on, so even if this does nothing but muddy the water, at least I can say I've said something that I pray will be useful somehow.