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Author Name: Aldara Genre: Fantasy Style: Short Story
Title: Ours is Hope
Aislinn climbed the last few steps up the bluff and sat, legs curled up against her chest. The wind played through her long hair, teasing it into knots and dragging the salty sea into waves that crashed against the cliffs. The wild water sounded fierce and cruel, but the wind just sounded lonely. The sky was inky navy, covered with clouds. Aislinn stared out over the sea. It was like her, a chaotic mix of emotion, swelling and ebbing as the wind pushed it. The darkness, too, seemed to suit her. It snuck into every crevice and attached itself to the heart of things. She no longer bore any outward sign, but it was inside her. It filled her with a sense of loss. She just couldn't find the joy that used to be there. Sometimes, she thought she could throw it off, like the time she sat with Tamah and saw pictures in the clouds, or the evening spent with the others, laughing and dancing. When she sang, sometimes, she felt a little bit happier, a little less scared. But then the darkness crept back, folding around her heart and stealing away everything but that terrible despair. The despair, she thought, was truer than the moments of peace. It seemed safe, now, but it wouldn't last. The Usurper was coming, with his armies, with the creeping, shadowy darkness, and the only ones who could stand against him were scattered. She was supposed to be a foreguard, like the Sentinel rock that she could see down below her, honed and polished by the waves. Instead, the waves had broken her, and now they were seeping into every crack and hollowing her out. She was slowly slowly dying.
Footsteps climbed the last few steps to the top of the bluff and sat down beside her, legs stretched out, bare feet bobbing slowly, just barely in her line of vision. Near her ear, there was a quiet breath, someone blowing on embers. A couple seconds and a phosphorescent light appeared in the corner of her eye, growing stronger a bit, then settling. A hand reached out and set the lamp between them. "Aislinn," it was Aodhan, worrying, as always. "Yes?" She asked even though she knew what he wanted. Is everything alright? He would say, can I help you?. "This has to end." He said instead, and Aislinn was so surprised that she almost asked what he was talking about. Her mind skittered through possible responses before settling on the first, automatic, one. "What has to end?" She didn't look at him. "This." He didn't sound frustrated, to his credit. She would have been. Then again, he didn't ever seem upset. "You pity yourself. That is understandable- we all pity you some." He waited, probably to see if she would take offense. She didn't. She knew what they were talking about when they thought she wasn't listening. "But truly, Aislinn, you aren't helping yourself by being sad all the time. This," he gestured to the lonely, sad surroundings, "is just hurting you." "I can't help it." She muttered. His head tilted toward her slightly. "Tell me why," he demanded, somehow still gently. "It’s inside. Like an infection." she explained. "What is? The sadness?" "The darkness. I'm... dark inside," she fished for a word, "tainted." "Nonsense." Aodhan sat up straighter. He seemed annoyed now. "Am I tainted?" He bent his head forward, showing the hair brushing his neck where an honour braid should be. "No!" she exclaimed. He chuckled, mystifyingly happy despite the subject matter. "I like it when you jump to my defense." "That was my fault. That's only part of the reason I'm-" "Hush, you." He glared out over the water. Aislinn stared, confused by the rapid swings of his mood. "You are not tainted, and if I hear that again I don't even know what I'll do. It's just silliness." His voice was stern, hinting at underlying fury. "I don't care what that man told you. I don't care what he did. None of that is your fault." "Still," she looked away, embarrassed. She wasn't worth his fury. He shouldn't bother. "Still what?" "Why bother?" "with..." he prompted. With me, she wanted to say, why bother with me when I'm tainted? But then he would argue again. So instead she asked, "with anything. Why celebrate? Why pretend we can do something? He's coming, and there's nothing we can do." He seemed surprised by that answer. "Two things. One, we can do something. If there was no point in us being here, God would not have put us here. He would not have chosen us if we couldn't do something. His plans are perfect, Aislinn. Two, we would go on anyhow, because hope is a powerful weapon.. If we keep up hope, then we're winning. His greatest weapon is fear. Ours is hope -hope in God. That is why we bother." "Oh," she said, very quietly. "When you sit alone and think about everything he did to you, when you just give up, it's hurting you, and those around you. It means that he’s beat you, because you don’t have any hope. And if he’s beat you, then we’re lost too. We’re a team." He calmed again, reaching out to tuck her wild, knotted hair behind her ear. "Have you thought about everyone else? Tamah relies on you, and so does Erantera. Dakila misses his friend. Sahil hates the sadness." She said nothing, looking at him. He smiled softly. "I've missed you too. I've hated watching you fall apart." "Oh," she said again. "Oh." He nudged her with his shoulder. "Look," he pointed, "the clouds are breaking up." They were. The moon was peeking out, and stars spotted the sky. As they watched, an albatross wheeled down in front of them, perching on a rock. They sat in silence for a bit. "Ready?" Aodhan stood and offered a hand to her. "They'll be waiting for us." Aislinn accepted the hand. "Ready," she answered.
They walked the last few steps through the woods together and stepped into the ring of firelight. The sky was inky navy, dotted with stars, and the wind played through her long hair, teasing it into knots and making the flames waver. The distant sound of waves was like drums, keeping time for the dancers. The wind tugged them into the ring of revelers. It was warm and people were laughing. Dakila's strong laugh rang out over them all, and he gestured to her. Come, be a part. She sat beside him and watched and listened. Sahil's melodic tenor rose, fumbling with words but still strong. Tamah stood beside a stranger, learning the dance steps. Even Erantera sat near them, a small smile gracing her face. Aodhan winked at her before joining the celebration. Aislinn laughed and picked up the song, feeling the darkness recede. If we keep up hope, then we’re winning. She warmed her hands in front of the fire and took in the happiness around her. Maybe there was hope after all.
_________________ ~Aldara
“For like a shaft, clear and cold, the thought pierced him that in the end the Shadow was only a small and passing thing: there was light and high beauty for ever beyond its reach.” -The Return of the King
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