| “How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart, you begin to understand, there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep...that have taken hold." ~Frodo
 
 Brothers and sisters... I thank you so much for the prayers you've poured out for Noelle, myself, and our families for over three weeks now.
 
 I have been blessed by God with incredible friends. I thank him every day for all of you.
 
 Before the original tragedy was multiplied by being sent away, before I learned the world is not so simple, and some people can't accept love for what it is, I had already started counting.
 
 Counting God's blessings. And I continue to do that now.
 
 God has been glorified through his healing work.
 
 God has brought me closer to Noelle.
 
 God has brought me closer to my parents - I'd been so rebellious in my youth, and even this summer our relationship was strained - but they both sacrificed everything for Noelle in support of me - Dad funding our two week trip, and leaving his important job as the executive officer of an Army battalion. Mom leaving her precious kids behind and driving with me, offering me support, and literally spending every night all night with Noelle, looking after her, and helping her limbs. I adore my family more than ever before. They can't afford to drive to church for the rest of the month, or anywhere, because they spent every dime they had on supporting me and Noelle.
 
 God has given all of us an incredible testimony. I have been able to witness to a dozen or more people through this.
 
 God has given us empathy for others with similar struggles. I bless, oh I bless His name for every new chance to empathize. He is the God who can empathize with us in all things, having taken the form of Man, became 100% man while still 100% God, and even died and suffered His own wrath.
 
 God has blessed me with many tears. With compassion. With a heart that aye, might be broken, but it is not hard.
 
 God has brought so many new people into my life, strengthened my relationship with so many old friends.
 
 God has done so much good, been so merciful. I will bless His name forever.
 
 R.C. Sproul once said, that instead of asking why bad things happen to good people, we should ask why good things happen to bad people.
 
 I am a bad person. And God has been so faithful to me and Noelle and our families.
 
 When He gives, and when He takes away, He is still faithful, and I will praise Him.
 
 Mr. Holmes was upset with some of the theology my posts were reflecting - specifically saying that God allowed or approved the wreck to happen. He asked me to not say this.
 
 But I will say this. Nothing happens outside of God's direct approval. Satan Himself must ask permission before touching one hair on our heads (see Job). What God wants happens, otherwise He is not God. God's plan is being carried out, always, and we cannot thwart it. God is writing a story, a story with a lot of tragedy, including this wreck, but because He is God, and He loves us so much, we know this story has an ending in victory.
 
 Pray for healing for all involved - our emotional healing. Every day I worry about Noelle, what she'll feel when she learns what has happened to me.
 
 I have nightmares every night about being sent away.
 
 I'm struggling to catch up in school. I'm reeling.
 
 But you all, you here, you warm my two hearts. :'D This thread was hard to read. So many memories. But I am sooooo thankful for all of you. I owe Holy Worlds a great debt.
 
 Brendan, Nicole, Calista, Elizabeth, and Airi - you five I will thank by name, because you had an incredible impact on everything. I bless God every day for you.
 
 Thanks so much for the prayers, and continue to pray for healing. God is so good, and merciful, and He is writing a wonderful story, even if it's one I would never have chosen for myself.
 
 Also pray I grow close to Him during this time of singleness.
 
 I've triple-checked this post to make sure it is not slanderous, that it does not contain gossip. It's only the truth, or the truth as I know it. If you have a problem with it, delete the whole thing, don't edit it, and I'll redistribute it to HWers elsewhere. It's what I'd like to say, and I won't say it any other way. I believe I deserve to have my say, even if it's only a fraction of what could be said. And I'll rest now. Thank you my brothers and sisters.
 
 Praise the God who made us, justified us, sanctifies us, and will one day glorify us.
 
 May I get to be with Him soon,
 
 Eli
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 Joseph Elijah McGowan
 {Compared in looks and personality to The Doctor - Add me on all social networks!}.
 
 
 "Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"
 ~ Dumbledore
 
 
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