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To all my HW friends who will read this: This is a personal Facebook message I just sent to an adult friend of mine who works with my church youth group. I am not requesting an edit or anything, but I thought it might be the best way to express a spiritual lesson I recently learned. Enjoy...
Hey, Mr [name removed]. You haven't been around lately but I knew I needed to say this. I have to admit that I've been bitter with you lately, more or less ever since the dog-food surprise incident. It was stupid of me, and I let it waste way to much of my brain power. I took every opportunity I had to be offended by anything you did or said, and have to admit that I tried to get some of my friends with me on this one. So listen/read as I say the most rarely heard ten words in the English language: I am sorry. I was wrong. Will you forgive me? I've wasted my time, my thoughts, my energy, and my relationship with God, ever since He convicted me of this, all at once. I never knew I could be so intolerably stupid as to do all that for no good reason whatsoever. So this is me admitting not only that I did something dumb or made a mistake or slipped, I wronged you with my attitude and my words. That was sin, not just stupid. So as I sign this off I know I have the comfort of being clear with God on this account, and that's priority one. Priority two is getting back a good ole friend.
One thing that astounded me lately was a little note that I found written in my own hand in an old devotional book. It said to think of three people that I needed to thank. As I stared in open wonder, I saw your name under there. I guess my bitterness since then obliterated whichever happy memory that was, so that's another big waste. So let this also be that thank you note for whatever it was that made me put down your name, and all the things I have neglected to thank you for while sitting around being a bum wallowing in my own feelings for the pure fun of the most boring activity ever: bitterness.
Once again, my apologies for my rotten attitude with you lately, whether it was visible or not, though I am sure it was more visible than I'd like to think.
And no, my Facebook account hasn't been hacked. My heart has been hacked. Hacked clean open by God. I have some other things to do while still bleeding with God's conviction, and before my bedtime comes, so I will go and attend to that now. I can't wait to see you when you come back.
To imagine that I sat around being unhappy when I can already say I'll be glad to see you back again soon... for the shame of it. Just so you know, I may post excerpts of this letter as an example of what God's done for me lately with some friends... figured you should know that since you are the intended recipient.
In Christ, [my name removed], professional eater, Tarshish locator, random rubbish swapper, and whichever other unique talents or crazy abilities you've experienced with me
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